SURENESS REVISITED

12:08 am

That means midnight:

The difference between four people enthusiastically playing music together and a grouchy band rehearsal turns out to be as small as five minutes of time spent thoughtfully adjusting volume levels. The past couple of band practices were a little bit off. Kris sometimes says, "Something isn't right, but I have no idea what it is." I'm glad I don't have to be his sound technician. Oh wait, I do. On the other hand, I am quite familiar with the irritation that comes from people with problems that think they know what the solution is. Is Kris thinking of this when he says he doesn't have the slightest clue what is wrong? I think it is more likely he senses a only a discrepancy between what is going on, and what it feels like should be going on. Not being able to articulate (or even recognize) exactly what it is must be very frustrating.

Sure, the first step to solving a problem is recognizing that a problem exists. Anyone can do that. The next and more important step would be to identify the problem. Clearly identifying the problem can be so helpful as to act as a solution. I'm working on a different aspect of problem solving: Figuring out when there isn't a problem. "If it ain't broke, don't fix it" sounds like it means "Don't worry about anything until it causes a problem", a short-sighted and irresponsible way to live. It really means "don't succumb to your neurotic impulses to fuX0r with everything." Well, that's what it means to me.

Speaking of the neurotic, I've gotta say I'm really proud of Brian. He's slowly losing the tendency to try and prove why people hate him. This probably means that he doesn't think everyone hates him anymore. It's much easier to work with him when he isn't making grand declarations of something or other. And I can point out the odd lousy idea of his (if that is my opinion) without him extrapolating years of hidden hatred from the statement. Goooood. Now he just has to get a higher paying job. Perhaps management, or marketing.

Just cause you think you deserve it all, doesn't mean that we plot your downfall --"Hold The Line" by Scirocco, misquote.

There were more goths than usual outside today. (Outside: in the surrounding world, 10 mile radius.) I think something gothical must have happened, but I didn't hear about it. I know it wasn't the bauhaus show, that isn't this week.

THe only things I have eaten today are little chocolate donuts. I wonder if your body can adapt to process a certain food more efficiently if you eat it a great deal. Then you could eat nothing but little donuts and still be alert and healthy. More likely, you'll have weird malnutrition related problems. Then again, there was that mythical guy who ate nothing but hot dogs for the last part of his life, and he lived past 100. Maybe lifespan has nothing to do with the particular brand of food you eat.

I will bring hypertext to its logical extreme. I will write a script that slightly context-sensitive-ly finds a link for every single word in a given body of text, using search engines. Every word on every page will be a link. Even boring words like "although".

O wait, that
would
be terribly time consum-
ing

I think that line breaks are used to convey pretension, since text can seem so simple and straightforward. When I am writing something down, the only extra line breaks are for rhythm. I think rhythm of speech is almost as important as what is actually said. Oh wait, maybe that's only in music.

As in Charlie Brown
the teacher asks me questions:
"wanh wahn, wahn wahn wahn?" -- Haiku Shmaiku

While brushing teeth: So, is killing scientists okay? They could make weapons to kill everybody. Is killing doctors okay? What? Why would killing doctors be okay? I dunno. Well, I guess I could ask the highly religious and people-loving pro-lifer folk. I hear some of them are into that.

I'm doing this... and I can't even say why! I'm sure it's not just a bad mood! --JHTM, popular amongst previously mentioned goths, tho it razzes them.

3:46 am

Going to work will be fun:

My teeth have chosen now to be very very very painful. No sleep this time. Writing MIDI instead.