11:37 pm
I told you I would finish my resume. That's a good thing, because
foad.org does not seem to be responding to the network. At least, the parts of the network that I can do things from.
Hmmm. I realize that the only practical way to host my webpage is by getting a job somewhere that can host it. It's too
expensive to buy space for. du shows it as something like 150 Megs. Mostly because of file archives and big ridiculous
files that I reference once in my journal somewhere. A huge, ungainly personal webpage which somehow manages to maintain a
state of incompleteness.
Last night I somehow managed to fall asleep while typing. I don't remember doing so, but when I woke up, I saw about
9 screens full of solid "1111111111111111111111111111111". Also, my little brother (Ian) and I went out and bought fudge brownie
ice cream and soda to make ice cream floats. I hadn't had one in quite a while. Basically, if soda isn't sugary enough for you,
you can add a couple scoops of ice cream to it. It foams quite a lot. You put it in a tall, narrow glass to minimize foaming, I guess.
Ice cream floats on soda, so you can eat it off the top. Usually. "Uh oh," said Ian. "What?" "Brownies don't float."
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People of the day: People who find something wrong with anything they rejected / were rejected by. I don't remember if I've said this already.
There is a tendency for people to take their current opinion of something and apply it to their memories of past interactions with the thing, too.
Take, for instance, a certain unnamed band member who plays keyboards. He composed a short keyboard solo to fill a gap in a song. The original was made
a year or so ago, and when he wrote it he was all gung-ho impressed with himself. A week or so ago he said something like "Hey Andrew, you know that dumbass keyboard solo I have?"
To which I replied, "I guess you have a new one now, huh." It only became "that dumbass keyboard solo" after he had the new one. He claimed that he had that opinion
from the beginning. In fact, I don't doubt that he believes that he did. But, I don't think so. Okay, enough picking on Brian.
Another example would be people who talk about their old relationships, and how they knew something was awry from
the beginning. That, of course, is complete baloney. You don't have subconscious prescient knowledge that you're going to break up badly. What you remember
is common paranoia. Everyone has that. At the time, you wouldn't shut up about how perfect everything was. Hmm okay okay, not YOU; you personally, "they".
Maybe this behavior just annoys me because I like to think of history as something absolute, like scribbles on an EEG.
Plus, "they" tend to invalidate any enjoyment they might have gotten out of the described thing in the past. It turns into "false fun".
They were "just fooling themselves". Yep, certainly have got the fooling yourselves thing down. Don't try to figure out who I might be talking about in particular.
Many people do it, I just wrote it down one day.
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