/********************************************************************** * * * 5102002.html - Summarizes the bad thinking of May 10. * * Arguments: N/A * * Returns: N/A * * Dependencies: Requires web server, user agent, and a global * * adaptive network connecting all potential clients * * with the host. * * Last Overview Next * * * * ****************************************************************** * * * * 12:37 AM - It's not pain * * * * The thing about going and interpreting the actions of a * * person as evidence of mental pathology is that everything you * * think you know about brains is entangled with what you think you * * can observe. For instance, for a while I thought my friend Brian * * was stuck at the developmental level of Jr. High School, but that * * turned out to be because I thought he should be less worried about * * what his friends thought of him (and subsequently less concerned * * over whether he was thought of as exceptional at something) and * * more aware of why he felt compelled to do the things he thought he * * should be doing (and as a result, depressed because he didn't * * really want to do them and mostly wound up not. doing them.) * * That stuff is all really about me and what I think people should * * like. I do the same things, trying to be exceptional and doing * * stuff which I don't want to do because I think I should want to do * * it. When I notice someone else upset about something, I always * * model their distress after the thing which would distress me. * * * * I guess this whole thing with the web and the writing is part of * * an attempt to paint a detailed picture of projection and how it * * makes me look at other people. Or no, projection is the only thing * * that lets me relate to other people at all. Or maybe I'm wrong * * about why I do stuff, but it's not useful to consider that * * possibility because then all I can do is ask other people why they * * think I did something. Yuck. That sounds like too much fun to me. * * * **********************************************************************/