That is, I know I done wrong. Fook.

It seems to be getting better though. I think the secondary DNS I use just learned the IP. It still takes a while to resolve. I can use the IP by itself to check my mail now. Gee this is just going on and on and I haven't really said anything useful. I might as well have said "my internet broke, but I think it's fixed now." Well, now YOU can check my work for errors.

It's almost impossible to talk about a whole lot of people at once. Your generalizations have to get more and more broad. When you are talking about ALL the people at once, you can only say things like "We don't know everything." and "We're all the same species." You are on thin ice even going to such metaphorical locations as "Being happy is good."

That's what I was thinking shortly after reading an article about skinheads in The Stranger. The article tells us that skinheads are crude and aggressive because they realize that masculinity is ... (god dammit. it's that word I've been trying to remember for the last year and a half. It's like "superficial", but has to do primarily with appearances and their irrelevance to substance. But in more of a relevance-to-hard-coded-reality way. Insubstantial? No... somewhere around there.), uh, masculinity is something that isn't a given, you can give it to yourself or take it away. (What they said in the article is that it's "masculinity is not natural, given, or absolute, but something performed, changable, relative. I guess they couldn't think of the word either.) Anyway. They said that skinheads do all this macho stuff because they are ACKNOWLEDGING this fact. (And not because they want everyone to think they are really tough.) If you went up to J. Random Skinhead and said "So if you grew your hair out and weren't wearing boots, overalls, and suspenders, you could be very feminine.", do you think they would thoughtfully agree with you? I think that maybe you would be menaced.

They said a lot of other things that make skinheads out to be very noble; practically the one perfect subculture. Hmm. "Skins are all about individuality." Besides the clothes, haircut, and attitude, I guess. Eh, what do I know? I'm not a skinhead. My thing with this article is that they're talking about lots of people at once and attributing all these high ideals to them when it's been demonstrated that they aren't true for a great deal of them! Realizing that it would make for a choppy, uninteresting article with no balls to acknowledge exceptions for everything they say, I can't fault the writer much. but still. "The violence in Skin culture is appealing primarily as a hyperbolic expression of an unassailable life-drive." You wanna talk rationalizing after the fact? It's how your brain works.

Hey! They've got some sort of web site! The "Queer Skinhead Revolt" website. (Queer? Maybe I read the article wrong.) If you're interested in gay skinheads, go do a web search. I think I'm done with the topic. No doubt I've completely misunderstood this article, but I'm sure the skinheads would want it that way.

While I'm talking about things I have no clue about: wouldn't it be funny if I accidentally alienated everyone I like? Like, I was so wrapped up in trying to get a job and be in a band and blotting out the sense of impending unpleasantness that I forgot that there were other people in the world, and I didn't write or call, and when I finally DID come out of it and had a job, and money, and time, I had LOST everyone? Gosh... I guess I better do some preemptive numbing so that when I notice, it won't hit as hard.