Le'a arrived from Hawaii today, at 9 pm. I had told her I would meet her at the airport, since everyone else said they wouldn't be able to. At the last second, Kris changed his mind and decided to bus down with me. Kris was planning to see 3SP somewhere with Julie, but I think Le'a yelled at him on the phone or something and altered his priorities. Good boy, Kris.

I spent my last dollar today, on that bus ride. Been saving it!

I also did other stuff. Very useful, productive things. Too bad things are so boring to talk about.

Maybe I'm just labeling everything boring because I want to be in a funk and make like I have some sort of reason for it. I don't want to be in a funk right now, though. I'm pretty happy, but I'm also wary of putting on airs. I've seen a few really bad examples of pretension fissioning out of control lately, and it made me think about perception of myself. It would be nice if I could ignore social positioning and pecking orders, but that would make me society-incompatible. I don't think I could manage it if I tried anyway. I guess I'm okay as long as I don't regard myself with a sense of awe and wonder. Perspective is very important, I think, and I don't want to lose any perspective I've managed to collect. Not perspective in the art-class vanishing point sense.

Is acknowledging that I am alive only because most of the people in the world agree to be controlled by words perspective? Really. People live and die just because of some words written somewhere. It'd be hard to organize all these god damn people without writing, that's for sure. Deep fucking thought, holmes.

Grr! I hate this...this dumbness. Today I was thinking about grammar. When I put sentences together a certain way, it's instinctual. I don't think about predicates or participles or anything. Its just the way the words come together in my head. When I think about a sentence after writing it, I'm often aware of grammatical errors. Is it worth preserving good grammar to reword your speech until it loses any character? A radio station thought this was interesting enough to have an hour long program about. It might have been CNN.

I've got some very interesting email to answer, but I keep stalling. Sitting at home is dull. This seems pointless. "Futile", actually, would be a better word. As if I'm trying to get something done. Do something. Whatever.

I'll wake up early tomorrow and see what Le'as up to. I'm applying to amazon.com for employment, too. Paragraphs are often a collection of related sentences. Obviously, this isn't always true.