In my typical stream-of-consciousness irc comms during today, I needed a self-deprecating comparison to the type of things I look forward to, and what I came up with was "but then again, I look forward to having a big elaborate headstone on my grave so goth chicks will rub themselves on it." Then someone else had an even better idea: get a big elaborate headstone while I'm still alive and keep some sort of record of the various cemetery-loving goths molesting it. And what a great way to meet those cheerfully morbid folks fascinated with what amount to big stone tongues sticking out of the ground. Hi guys, how do you like my headstone? No, I'm not a vampire, I'm just investing in the lucrative eternal real estate market, and I had an extra big bowl of Frosted Saturnine Flakes today.

Given my electronic music composition background and all those years of suffering through tempo matching of samples in mods, perhaps I could get some turntables and go be what they call a "DJ". Being a DJ is mega-trendy right now, almost everyone I know is a DJ... well, that's not true. Lots of people I know are, though. It's easy to be a not-awful DJ, sort of like making music with sonic foundry's ACID, or drawing balls with photoshop. Being a DJ is SO cool that you get to put the title "DJ" in front of your name, like being a knight or Duke or something. ("Sir Mix-a-lot" readily acknowledges this). Though it seems silly, I'm really serious about doing it. I've made music using as many techniques and mechanisms as I could figure out, and I won't let my aversion to popular things stop me from one more. If it turns out to be stupid (or I turn out to be stupid), I can always sell the equipment to a budding Shadow wannabe, of which there are ten million around here (or at least, enough to support two DJ supplies stores within a few blocks).

God, it's just one brilliant fucking idea after another in this brain, isn't it? What's next? I open my own special breakfast store on Broadway and call it "Big, big, giant eggs"? I develop Yet Another Napster called "Blapster" which has integrated porn-sharing and user reviews? Oh, I know: Answering Machine with laser light show synchronized to the rhythm of messages being left! Like a winamp viz plugin! Great! Hooray for inspiration and being creative!

I'm okay with reading about marketing, but there is one thing that just pushes my "marketing is bullshit" button really hard, and that's the phrase "Creativity is worthless". That's how it is in marketing, apparently. Ouch, my idealism!

Oy, and a smart thing that Jega said: "The more decisions you make, the more individual your music is going to be."

A smart thing that... er... well, just listen(394K wav audio).